Inside Out. My story

Opinion:

I already liked it Demi Moore. I always liked it. I don’t know what I saw in her but I have a sixth sense to distinguish wounded animals with light in the soul, and maybe that’s what I saw in her even though she was sold as a cinematographic icon nothing more. Sometimes as a sex symbol, others as the one nicknamed “Give me more”… I knew about her what I read in film magazines, so from her failed marriage to Bruce Willis I just read that he didn’t know how to keep his pants buttoned. With him she had three daughters (Rumer, Scout LaRue and Tallulah) who today are very close to her mother and take care of her father when he had to leave the world of cinema due to his
disease, aphasia. Interestingly, and this is what has caught my attention the most in the book, is that Demi does not talk about infidelities on the part of Willis, or if she drops them as soon as you find out, because she gives much more importance to other issues, and she is who seems to want to end the relationship.

But Demi’s story begins in her childhood (not so
the book, which begins with him passing out after taking drugs with his daughter at a party and wondering how he got there, is a recurring question throughout the book). Y what a childhood. There are things that I am not going to reveal in case there is someone left who still wants to be surprised by some personal issues, but it seems to me tremendously heartbreaking. That low self-esteem and that obsession with wanting to be who others want, measuring herself as they measure her with their eyes (either by weight or physique), be given the value sometimes null that he didn’t deserve… Growing up like this is terrible because condition your whole life.

I suggested her biography precisely to read it in the book club and one of the members told me that she had read quite a lot and Demi did not have a birthday. Of course! Is that before reaching the age of twenty, Demi had experienced everything! Her childhood, her difficult relationship with her parents, her adolescence, that feeling that she is more sensible than her parents but
for lack of conventional maternal and paternal reference leads her to disaster more than once

Then her beginnings (so young, that’s what you realize when you’re my age) in the world of cinema, everything related to drugs and alcohol, their intimate relationships (I didn’t remember that she was Emilio Estévez’s girlfriend)… This time has seemed fascinating to me because he talks about anecdotes from his films and I was a regular at video stores, I knew all the actors with whom he was related or worked, the directors, the films… I went back to my own adolescence, to my youth.

Bruce Willis -with whom I was always in love, also with John Travolta, I confess- arrives in the middle of the book, and there you see how
Demi insists on having a functional, correct, conventional family.. His struggle to achieve it without abandoning his career completely or losing is also a constant fight: in Hollywood you either go further or you continue, but if you disappear… bad.

His relationship with paparazziher relationship with Bruce Willis (this has left me touched even though they ended well in the end, but there was a time… what a disappointment), her loneliness when her daughters decide to abandon her, again her low self-esteem despite being an intelligent and creative woman, a fighter to be empowered and yet captive of her obsessions… My goodness. An absolute resilient. A wise woman who has known how to find peace, and whose greatest sin was always fighting against herself, believing -as many of us have believed- that we must give to make our partners happy and then give ourselves with a sing in the teeth when we do not receive not a third of what was offered. However, she has also found that wisdom thanks to her life journey, with all her chiaroscuro.

Demi was always criticized and spent her life trying to prove that she was not what they said. She needed to love herself more. Today she is in a good time, that of maturity in which even her disappointment with Ashton Kutcher has passed into an apology.

And gosh… Bruce Willis was never criticized for being with young girls but she was criticized for being with a young boy. The macho society sucks.

What has struck me the most is his ability to forgive.. Forgive his mother, how difficult after reading several times a question that appears in this book and that I will not tell because it is a big spoiler. made my hair stand on end.

And the most amazing thing is that She doesn’t wallow in pain, she narrates it, she undresses, but she doesn’t want them to feel sorry for her, she just opens up, and at no time does she look for the reader’s tears. This has happened, period. And she has to grow up, look for answers and even forgive, because she wants to move forward, not go back.. How much do I still have to learn from her? I found it inspiring. Of course, something that she has plenty of and that I don’t have would help me a lot to get to that point: money. Demi Moore wouldn’t have been Demi Moore if she hadn’t blown it and she had known how to assert herself in the commercial world.

I already liked Demi Moore; after reading her book “Inside Out” I can assure you that I have a great appreciation for her. And whoever does not appreciate what she says in her memoirs is that she has not understood anything.

A fact: in the central pages there is a series of photographic dossier so that you can put a face to some characters, including her parents or her first husband, for example.

I recommend it without a doubt.

Anika Lillo

Inside Out. My story